Something of value

Megan

I acknowledge that I have made you worse, especially after reading these last two e-mails. Each e-mail is like hearing from someone different. Your emotions are see-sawing all over the place. But it all comes back to me. I am the bad guy in your life. The one that makes you what you are.

Our life together is not a lie but I can't change how you feel about that at this point in time.So I have also made an appointment with my doctor (a week ago) and am waiting for a counseling referral so I can talk to someone about our relationship as it seems everything I do or say... is to you ... destructive in some way.

I know you worked hard planning your dream wedding. I was going for it so I wasn't leading you on. I put the plans on "hold" because I truly believed you needed to get some balance in your life. Marriage is for life, a wedding is just one day. There's no point in going another round on the whys and wherefores as it's not productive for either of us right now.

So...what DO you want me to do?
Love
Mom

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My Response:

Try being honest with yourself... like you told me to love myself, first.

Maybe then you can write me an email without back-handed compliments.

You keep apologizing but doing it again and again. It's like an abusive relationship.

You tried to be my friend when I needed a mother, and you never really learned how. Didn't have it in you, and ashamed to admit it.

I don't know "what I want from you" right now.

I'm not deciding until I see Dr. Philp. I'm logging off now before I make myself worse

Respectfully,
Meg

PS - I did not have a job when we met with Reg so stop saying I did. It was a 4 week temp gig.