Not that I want to see people hurt, or that I'm jaded.
I just know my own pain so well now, I'm not going to apologize for it or be embarassed about it.
If those around me want to be embarassed - that's fine.
Don't be around me, I'm making it easy on all of you.
"Who does Megan love?" mom would ask...
"Myself, because until I love me, I can't love anyone else"
Wisdom that I was NEVER allowed to live by.
Well, check this out: I'm gonna go cry for a second, walk my dog, vacuum the downstairs and dust... and I'm going to love every second... not just ME, but my choices, my breaths, random thoughts...
Every second I think about Mom on her own, Joanne being angry over innocent comments, my family being worried, not having a job or being scared about the myriad of reasons I have - I just drink it all it in... and remember that above all:
I am me.
Everyone else can LOVE it like I do, or leave it.
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