Mom:
I never said I was "happy" but I said I was okay with who I am.
YOU are single-handedly making my life hell.
Everyday I cry for hours because my life with you was a lie.
I fall asleep crying trying not to let Craig hear me, he has to work early.
I take my meds and try to submit resumes but I freeze, or I don't like something about it.
It all comes back to you though. All those wedding files, those portfolios, I worked HARD on those, that's why those were there. That's why I kept sending you stuff... and you LET ME.
You broke me 2 weeks ago and now I'm WAY worse than when I started.
THAT'S what you need to awknowledge.
If you can't do that - then yes, I'm gone.
If you can't do that and I stay - I'm going to make myself sicker.
WHY AM I THINKING OF CHECKING INTO A MENTAL HOSPITAL FOR THE THIRD TIME IN A WEEK BECAUSE OF YOU? DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL AT ALL GUILTY? EVEN A LITTLE... or is this for "my best" too?
I never said I was "happy" but I said I was okay with who I am.
YOU are single-handedly making my life hell.
Everyday I cry for hours because my life with you was a lie.
I fall asleep crying trying not to let Craig hear me, he has to work early.
I take my meds and try to submit resumes but I freeze, or I don't like something about it.
It all comes back to you though. All those wedding files, those portfolios, I worked HARD on those, that's why those were there. That's why I kept sending you stuff... and you LET ME.
You broke me 2 weeks ago and now I'm WAY worse than when I started.
THAT'S what you need to awknowledge.
If you can't do that - then yes, I'm gone.
If you can't do that and I stay - I'm going to make myself sicker.
WHY AM I THINKING OF CHECKING INTO A MENTAL HOSPITAL FOR THE THIRD TIME IN A WEEK BECAUSE OF YOU? DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL AT ALL GUILTY? EVEN A LITTLE... or is this for "my best" too?
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