Aunt's Retort

Hi Megs.

Kathy thinks very highly of you and has not given up on you. I know that for sure. When you are hurting, she is hurting. When you are having a bad time, she is having a bad time. No parent or child is perfect...that is for sure but one thing that never changes is that she would do anything for you...as would any of your Aunts/Uncles if you needed anything. Also, I don't think of you as screwed up or the black sheep at all. I think of you as your own person.

However, the most important thing is how YOU see yourself. You CAN change how you see yourself...but you have to want to change. It may take some work and time but you CAN DO IT MEGAN. I know you can. You just need to WANT to change... to be who you want to be and do what you want to do. It may take a lot of determination, perseverance, hard work and persistence at times...and there will be ups and downs along the way. But I know that deep inside you, you have what it takes to be the person you want to be. This may all sound a bit corny but true. Be gentle with yourself Megabucks. And don't forget that your family loves you and we are here if you need anything.

Bye for now and keep in touch.

Love to you too!

Shannon

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Oh Shan,

I don't want this to sound harsh so please note my sedatives for the night are kicking in.
I am who I want to be.
I don't want to change.
I think that's a big part of how the family perceives me.
I didn't realize THAT was what it was for a long time...
but I AM the black sheep.
I'm just coming to accept that's okay.I'm looking for acceptance of all of me from the family, not token graces because "that's what family does", you know?

-Megs