Broken?

Broken?
Showing posts with label South Park. Show all posts
Showing posts with label South Park. Show all posts

Saturday, December 29, 2007

...I just don't get it...

...have you ever seen that episode of South Park where Token (the only black character) and Stan are in a fight because Stan's father used the "N" word on national TV? I looked for a clip as illustration to no avail... and they say you can find anything on the internet! :-P

Well, Stan tried to make amends with Token over and over in the episode, only to be met with CONSTANT and vehement refusal. But as the episode draws to a close, you see Stan running to Token screaming, "Token, I don't get it!!! I don't get it!!!".

Token's response after a long pause?

A smile, a wink, a knowing point "Now you get it, man."

That's kind of how I feel right about now. I just don't get it.

I don't understand why Aunt Jo flipped her wig on me for some comments I made to Matthew. I don't get why the family pushes closer when I asked for space. I don't get why Mom did what she did when she did. I don't get why people are ashamed of things that are common fact. As I said to Craig today, embracing my flaws is the most empowering thing I'd ever done - and it was one of the scariest to begin with. I don't get why we'd pretend everything was okay if she's mad at me for something... I don't get why she acts like she doesn't care.

"I DON'T GET IT!!!"

I DON'T GET IT. ...So, in a way, I kinda get it.

None of it matters, anyway. I'm living in a different place than the majority my family now. And I just have to accept it's okay... Like a vegan who has friends who wear leather coats. Suck it up.

I'm being me. That's the best I can do for now. I won't hide things that make me who I am.