Back to basics... the SSRI

Well, the new SSRI's are starting to do their thing and I'm not 100% sure how I feel about it. Generally I feel good. I'd almost call it a buzz, except that this is supposed to be what normal feels like. Happy? Is that the word I'm looking for?

PRO: my mind doesn't race, much like on the sedatives.
CON: I can't stop moving, twitching, tummy rumbling.
PRO: I have more energy.
CON: my eyes still feel tired.
PRO: I'm writing more.
CON: I'm itchy all over, arms, knees, wrists - annoying!
PRO: my sleep is better.
CON: I don't know what to do with all the quiet in my head. :-P
PRO: I look pretty good now-a-days.
CON: this treatment might make me gain weight.

So really, on the whole, I suppose it adds to a positive thing.

Although I'm sure this will take a little getting used to. My brain has been so unbalanced for so long, I'm sure they'll be some adjustment... which is why I'm so glad I have Dr. Madigan twice a week right now. She's watching me like a hawk. Super therapist who's up to date and always doing new training, but always has time for those who need her. Good egg.

I could speak to how much time I'm putting in on the Black-Focused School debate, but I've been doing so much I don't want to spend another word on it. :-)

I'm going to try to relax the rest of the day away, knowing I stop smokng tomorrow (yes, again) and have a hell of a day of cleaning as well. Well, at least my hands will be busy - as will my head, trying to figure out what to blog about!